Happy Wednesday!
Hello, hello, hello, and happy Wednesday! Once again, today is garbage day and I am using it not only as a day to get rid of all of our trash but also as a day of cleansing and renewal.
Beginning the day with a purpose helps the rest of the day go well for me. I listen to prayers and meditations with Bible readings to help calm me and I really benefit from it. I find that when I don’t begin my day this way that things go downhill pretty fast.
I finally followed through with what I have wanted to start doing again for a while- I did an exercise routine to a video. Every exhale, I released my toxic thoughts and feelings. After that, I took my dog on a walk, which was nice for both of us. During our walk, I did not have one negative thought whatsoever. Now if I could just stick with these things it would be great. A lot of times, life gets in the way, or we just do not want to get up early enough to get things done. Well, we shall see!
Today’s Poem
Today’s poem is about a subject that hits a chord with me- taking medication. Since I have a mental illness, people throughout my life have felt like it has been their right to nag me about my medications. They ask me if I am still taking my medication, or what medication I am on. They do not know the secret code- that those types of questions are usually reserved for us “Insiders” that also have a mental illness. We do not want to hear it from other people that underneath it all are possibly just digging for or saying something else.
Even if do not have ulterior motives by asking us about our meds, they can make us feel like it when they do. OK, vent over… but truly, meds are a touchy subject. I hope this poem gives you a little more insight about how it is to live with mental illness (if you don’t already experience it yourself). Here we go!
Meds
It is the fire we choose to play with
Never knowing what we will lose
And if we will ever win at all with these meds we must take
Feeling dizzy and tired
Or gaining weight
Just to feel more depressed and lethargic
Not wanting to see any friends
Then family talks behind our backs when we see them
Saying things like, “Oh how sad that the meds made her fat!”
As they smile to our face
No wonder so many people go on and off of their meds every day
But this time I will stay and just try to do well with my health
I will eat right, exercise, stay away from toxic people, and play this game we call life
In the end, hopefully, everything will turn out alright
Until next time, stay safe, and be blessed!
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