Dealing With Dissociation and Derealization

Photo by Estée Janssens on Unsplash   Greetings!   Hello, to you, and I hope you're doing well! I am sitting in complete shock right now and a little embarrassed. Since I am not yet the greatest at navigating my entire website, I tend to overlook things. I also took such a long break that I haven't gotten caught up. The shocking thing to me is that I have a bunch of comments. In my...

Give Me Your Beautiful Writing

  Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash     It's incredible what words can do. They have the power to spark emotions while, at the same time, expanding our minds. They also have the ability to build us up or destroy us if we let them. I have had many hurtful words thrown my way over the years, and in one particular instance, the person told me, "They're just words." Words can drive...

Gratitude- the Remedy

  Photo by Erriko Boccia on Unsplash       Does it ever seem like you’re waiting for something to happen that never comes? I used to say I felt like Cinderella, but the Ball never came. Something else I’ve found is that it’s never as pleasurable as I imagined when I anticipate something, and it’s almost like the excitement lies in the waiting. One of the only things I...

Finding Love Online

      In a few months, it will be my 6-year anniversary.  When I think of how my husband and I met, I still marvel at the "coincidences" of how we found each other. The stars were smiling at us, and God must have whispered in my husband's ear that I was the one he was waiting for. He's my best friend, my comforter, my biggest advocate, and my protector.I love Justin Fink so...

Rest in Peace, My Friend

I heard this morning that my longtime friend from India passed away, so I decided to write him a letter as a tribute.  ~bless India forever~ Photo by Umesh Soni on Unsplash    I just heard the awful news, my friend. I heard you passed away. We were only Facebook friends, but you called me your best friend, and I believed you.   Until I find out what happened to...

Breaking the Cycle

  Breaking the Cycle ~finally choosing life again~ Photo by Miguel Bruna on Unsplash It can get frustrating to read the lists of accomplishments others have made while I stayed stuck in this mental cage, barely able to go outdoors unless I have my “safe” person beside me. Even then, everything outside feels foreign. I can’t look into anyone’s eyes, so I stare at their...

I’m More than Just a Walking Mental Illness

I did not recently write this. I found it in my drafts and thought I would post it to remember how far I've come.  Even though I thought I was in a good place when I wrote this, I am in a much better place now. Onward and upward, being gentle with myself about the losses.    I’m More than Just a Walking Mental Illness I’m a human being, just like you, and have feelings too....

Losing my Fur-Babies

Photo by Amy Baugess on Unsplash     Losing my Fur-Babies ~it’s something you never fully heal from~   a phone call  that changed my world standing there wondering if it was real hearing all my cats were dead all because of him they may have thought I was morbid when I came with my shovel to the funeral to rescue my cats from the ground as I brought them to their final...

When You’re Tired

  Photo by Abbie Bernet on Unsplash     Do you ever have those days you feel so tired that you wonder if you will ever have any energy again? For me, I freak out a little, thinking I must be headed for another season of low energy. During times where we are tired, it's easy to rush around, trying to get the essential things done, going almost on autopilot. Before we know it, the...