Memories During Psychosis, While Hospitalized

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink November 27, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Leeloo The First: . I used to fear getting forced injections at the psych ward, until they no longer scared me. They forcefully injected me 3 times during my last visit, and then they gave up. . One night, after yelling at the staff, I started asking for the forced injections. A huge security guard came up to me, and I asked if I would be injected. Instead, he handed me a journal to...

He Will Deliver Me

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink November 1, 2024 0 Comments
Image by 👀 Mabel Amber, who will one day from Pixabay The rain fits the moodYet I cry out to Himin my distressFor He sees the state I'm inAnd He's greaterthan anything I'm facingI can raise up my handsAnd leave all of my stressFor our, Godcan deliver me still And He will He willYes, He will Image by Ruslan Henyk from Pixabay 2 Timothy 4:18 And the Lord shall deliver me from every evil work,...

Life is Always Strange, but God is Good Through it All- My Mental Health Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 16, 2024 0 Comments
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay Between the two dimensions, hovering over reality and dreamland. When dreams conflict with the daytime hours, and don't seem just like dreams anymore... Image by eommina from Pixabay I try to find my grounding point. I pray desperate prayers to my Abba, Father, In Jesus' name, by the power of the Holy Spirit. . Even here, He will not leave His child. God does...

Floating Through Seas of Sadness- My Mental Health Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 14, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Michael Shannon on Unsplash Feeling helpless for change with the amount of time I am up against. They say that all we truly have is today- right now. Right now, I am sad. Right now, I wish I could go back in time and fix what I did during psychosis. Not possible. Photo by Hermes Rivera on Unsplash . During my bipolar mania, it was as if someone was walking and living inside my body. A...

Puzzles in the Night…

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 10, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Ryoji Iwata on Unsplash . In the nighttime hours things divide into smaller pieces that seem to make sense.Then the dreams come, and people have hidden knowledge released beyond the veil..Only to wake up to more confusion. A mind divided by nightmares cannot stand for very long..When dawn arrives, the light flickers in between crippling muscle spasms, as you cry out for even the...

There’s Always, Maybe!!! My Mental Health Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 9, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Giulia Bertelli on Unsplash Trying to transition from psych ward life back into a displaced situation that feels like chaos in my mind. Don't worry, just eat another protein bar... I am very grateful to have a family that will take me in and shuffle me around. I always wondered if this day would come. Now that it’s here, I feel like a chicken with its head cut off, but anticipating a...

Another Day, but Not Another Dollar

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 8, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Ruth Gledhill on Unsplash It feels as though I am in a sort of time warp. There is only one direction to go, and one way to be, and I need to cling onto this. I need to trust in God, no matter what comes my way.  . I feel like I have lost everything and everyone. People think I am on meth when I meet them, but that is not the case. Have I really lost everything and everyone?...

My Bipolar Mind~~Poetry~

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 6, 2024 0 Comments
Image by 鹈鹂 夏 from Pixabay-poetry where do I go from here?when will I know the end of misery?the streets feel so emptyyet they’re so full of lifemy organs jab me as i think negativelymy finger trembles as I try, and voice my truthyou were there, in the nighttime hourslurking beyond a daydream that turned into nightthe veil was torn beyond my mindas I reached the afterthought of truthno...

My Living Nightmare

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 5, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Transly Translation Agency on Unsplash I have been through a living nightmare, as of late. I just got out of the psych ward very recently. I can’t get into the whole thing at the moment, and it’s hard to swallow what really happened. I went from thinking I no longer had Bipolar 1, and just had Autism, ADHD, and complex PTSD, under a Drs care. An NP took me off of all my medications...

Embracing the Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink April 16, 2024 0 Comments
Annie and Umi I can't believe it's been a whole year without my Anni and Umi. In my mind,  I can still reach out and touch them both. Their loss sparked a domino effect of changes in my life. I cut ties with many people and started to focus on moving on from all the hurt. I've made a lot of progress!. Recently, I received my ADHD, combined type, and Autism diagnosis. I am getting weaned off...