Floating Through Seas of Sadness- My Mental Health Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 14, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Michael Shannon on Unsplash Feeling helpless for change with the amount of time I am up against. They say that all we truly have is today- right now. Right now, I am sad. Right now, I wish I could go back in time and fix what I did during psychosis. Not possible. Photo by Hermes Rivera on Unsplash . During my bipolar mania, it was as if someone was walking and living inside my body. A...

Puzzles in the Night…

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 10, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Ryoji Iwata on Unsplash . In the nighttime hours things divide into smaller pieces that seem to make sense.Then the dreams come, and people have hidden knowledge released beyond the veil..Only to wake up to more confusion. A mind divided by nightmares cannot stand for very long..When dawn arrives, the light flickers in between crippling muscle spasms, as you cry out for even the...

There’s Always, Maybe!!! My Mental Health Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 9, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Giulia Bertelli on Unsplash Trying to transition from psych ward life back into a displaced situation that feels like chaos in my mind. Don't worry, just eat another protein bar... I am very grateful to have a family that will take me in and shuffle me around. I always wondered if this day would come. Now that it’s here, I feel like a chicken with its head cut off, but anticipating a...

Another Day, but Not Another Dollar

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 8, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Ruth Gledhill on Unsplash It feels as though I am in a sort of time warp. There is only one direction to go, and one way to be, and I need to cling onto this. I need to trust in God, no matter what comes my way.  . I feel like I have lost everything and everyone. People think I am on meth when I meet them, but that is not the case. Have I really lost everything and everyone?...

My Bipolar Mind~~Poetry~

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 6, 2024 0 Comments
Image by 鹈鹂 夏 from Pixabay-poetry where do I go from here?when will I know the end of misery?the streets feel so emptyyet they’re so full of lifemy organs jab me as i think negativelymy finger trembles as I try, and voice my truthyou were there, in the nighttime hourslurking beyond a daydream that turned into nightthe veil was torn beyond my mindas I reached the afterthought of truthno...

My Living Nightmare

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink October 5, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Transly Translation Agency on Unsplash I have been through a living nightmare, as of late. I just got out of the psych ward very recently. I can’t get into the whole thing at the moment, and it’s hard to swallow what really happened. I went from thinking I no longer had Bipolar 1, and just had Autism, ADHD, and complex PTSD, under a Drs care. An NP took me off of all my medications...

Embracing the Journey

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink April 16, 2024 0 Comments
Annie and Umi I can't believe it's been a whole year without my Anni and Umi. In my mind,  I can still reach out and touch them both. Their loss sparked a domino effect of changes in my life. I cut ties with many people and started to focus on moving on from all the hurt. I've made a lot of progress!. Recently, I received my ADHD, combined type, and Autism diagnosis. I am getting weaned off...

You Met Me~Poetry

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink March 25, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Jametlene Reskp on Unsplash-poetry ~Poetry is NOT Dead!~~Poetry is for Everyone!~~Happy Poetry!~ Photo by Luca Bravo on Unsplash-poetry How many nights did I suffer?How many days did I cry?But now it is time to recoverJust like it's time to say goodbye Photo by Bobby Johnson on Unsplash-poetry You Met Me I cried out to youin the nighttime hoursmorning cameand I searched for you all the...

Still Here, After the Pain~~Poetry~

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink March 18, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Mario Dobelmann on Unsplash-poetry ~Poetry is NOT DEAD!~~Poetry is for Everyone!~~Happy Poetry!~ Photo by Zac Durant on Unsplash-poetry Freedom of Knowing I learned to cry aloneI learned to dream aloneI learned to fleeInside myselfThen God reached outHis gentle handHe told me not to fearHe reminded methat through those nightsHe was always nearI did not cry aloneI did not dream aloneI...

You Will Help Me Through~~Poetry~

Charlotte Kingsbury-Fink March 11, 2024 0 Comments
Photo by Priscilla Du Preez 🇨🇦 on Unsplash-poetry ~Poetry is NOT DEAD!~~Poetry is for Everyone!~~Happy Poetry!~ Photo by Jamez Picard on Unsplash-poetry Hello, Poetry Friends!💜 I hope you are well! Thank you for visiting my poetry blog. I appreciate you being here!. I spent many years in the darkness of depression. I never knew what it meant to want to live- I only knew how to survive....