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Life

It’s like I can see it coming toward me
and know what needs to be done before it gets here
but the more I feel rushed
the slower I go

everything becomes a distraction
the buzzing lights
ticking of the clock
dogs barking in the background
sirens
anything to divert my thoughts

so much could begin to seep in
not knowing if these feelings need to be felt
maybe I can heal without reliving
every moment of pain I’ve endured

could forgetting be healthy?
is that what moving on means?
I hate having to always keep my guard up

home will have to be a different idea
than originally hoped for
life can still have meaning
even when you’re alone

sometimes we need to choose peace over happiness
and find a new happiness

we need to look within 
and treat ourselves with the love we didn’t get

knowing now that those we used to depend on
are no longer there
truly, they never were

and I’m still OK

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~Until next time, take care, and stay safe!~