Running away when you wish you could stay
~Poetry is NOT dead!~
~Poetry is for everyone!~
~Happy Poetry!~
Hello, My Poetry and Writing Friends!
Hello, my poetry and writing friends! I hope you are well! Thank you so much for visiting my poetry and writing blog. Whether you are a reader, writer, observer, or anything in between, I want to welcome you! I don’t know what is going on in your life lately, but my energy levels have been low.
When I get more tired, I start to worry I’m headed for a depressive episode. I also need to be extra careful when I make new changes, like with my current medication change. I need to expect that I might be more tired for a while until my body gets used to it.
I know this feeling will pass, and I am glad I can finally say that. Previously I gave into the gloom and doom, and I might write about it but don’t stay there for long.
Good things are happening all over the place, just like the bad, and I need to focus on the good. Joy comes from the little things; over time, the little things can add up and become the things we cherish the most.
~Happy Poetry!~
I Feel Like Hiding Away Today
Running away when you wish you could stay
his words
got underneath
my skin
*
I shouldn’t
let this happen
and can’t control
what others think
*
but now I feel
like hiding
*
my knees are weak
I start to panic
*
I don’t want him to see
*
I run away
even though
it makes
me look worse
than in the beginning
*
maybe I’ll try
another day
to reverse this
entire feeling
Have you ever felt this way? I am sure I’m not the only one.
One thing about having social anxiety is you worry about looking dumb in front of people, and it’s like you have an imaginary audience constantly judging you in your mind.
The fear of others can make you want to stay away from people altogether. This is something I want to challenge, but it will take time.
Right now, I am making small steps that hopefully will amount to something over time.
If you struggle with social anxiety and misreading people, I feel your pain. The only thing I know to do is to try to challenge my fears in some way each day. Over time, the little efforts can turn into real progress. I am excited for that day to come.
I think we can all live a better life if we choose to work on how we look at things. Let me know what you think!
~Thanks for reading! Until next time, stay safe, and be blessed!~ 🙂
