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Does it ever seem like you’re waiting for something to happen that never comes? I used to say I felt like Cinderella, but the Ball never came.
Something else I’ve found is that it’s never as pleasurable as I imagined when I anticipate something, and it’s almost like the excitement lies in the waiting.
One of the only things I found in life that gave me a natural rush (besides mania) was when I’d go on a big carnival ride. Being thrown in circles and upside down has been one of the most exciting things I’ve ever experienced, and it’s kind of like a giant adult toy. The next most exciting thing for me would probably be horseback riding, especially going fast.
Thankfully I don’t crave an adrenaline rush like I did when I was younger. My anxiety gives me enough adrenaline every couple of days, and it’s not a rush I enjoy.
I think one long-term way to gain meaning and satisfaction in life is through gratefulness; to God and other people.
Instead of getting instant gratification from a rush, we can rest during the moment and be thankful. There is always something to be grateful for, even if it’s life itself, which is quite a significant reason.
We can appreciate the vastness of the sky, the seemingly endless ocean, the intricacies of a flower, or even the complexities of our bodies.
Sometimes it’s hard when depression or anxiety gets in the way of our ability to feel grateful. My ex-husband accused me of being ungrateful when I was going through a depressive episode. When we feel hopeless, it’s hard to remember that better days will come, but they do.
I need to remember that I have numerous reasons to be grateful. I’m thankful for my family, pets, food, and home. I have everything I need and more. My water is clean, and my bed is nice and comfortable.
Most importantly, I have the opportunity to love God and be loved by Him. Without Him, I wouldn’t exist.
Ultimately, we can thank God for everything. Why not try to practice more gratitude and see what happens? I suspect only positive things will follow, so I’m all in!
~Thanks for reading! Until next time, stay safe, and be blessed!~
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