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Hello, My Poetry and Writing Friends!
Hello, my poetry and writing friends. I hope you are well! Thank you for visiting my blog. I appreciate you being here. 🙂
I hope you enjoy today’s poem- It is more like a journal entry.
Examining My Mind~~Poetry~
my mind is a digital filing cabinet
that I can compartmentalize at times
shuffle around a bit and reorganize
I try to shred the information occasionally
but another file appears
or it wasn’t removed from the bin
and there it remains
I try to type into the side of my brain
the information I want to accept as my reality
but I can’t type the words fast enough for my brain to understand
my mind does not stutter
but sometimes, my words trip over themselves
after they leave my mouth
sometimes the cabinet gets too full
and I go into a full-blown episode
but that has been happening less than in the past
sometimes I must recharge myself for days
after an exhausting encounter with certain emotions
if tears were present
then add a few days extra to recover
and everything will be back to normal
and I can see again
my eyes get so puffy when I cry
it doesn’t seem to be worth it most of the time
then I think, oh, what a vain thought to think
since I rarely look in the mirror
I shouldn’t care
It almost sounds shallow, but in reality
fighting tears is an excuse to block out emotions
I can write about tears
but it’s rare that I actually find one to cry
I resist them with that lump that builds in the back of my throat
and my brain starts to feel like it’s contracting
I don’t know what that means
but it’s what it feels like when I fight the tears
I feel like I have won after conquering them
but I am the real loser in the end
tears could be helping me heal
but I have almost completely banished them from my life
it’s not healthy
but neither are cheeseburgers
and most of us eat them
I am doing what I need to do to get through the day
and overall, I am not hurting anyone but myself
at least, that’s what I am telling myself
for now
~Thank you for reading, and until next time, stay safe, and be blessed!~ 🙂
