Update

Things are very different right now compared to this time last year. I remember being so hopeful at the end of 2019 that 2020 would be the best year of my life, but just like for most others out there, it was anything but.

Last year during this time, I was just entering a major depressive episode that would end up lasting for most of the year. I ended up in the hospital in March, after being in the hospital the previous October. Hopefully, that will be the very last time I ever see that place again.

It’s been a rough road, but things are finally starting to be OK again. I remember that during my lowest times last year, I never thought things would ever be alright again.

Sometimes it scares me to think how low I became. I haven’t been able to open up to many people about it in fear of judgment. The one “friend” I did open up to was quite rude, and it took a lot of guts for me to confide in her to begin with, so I have kept pretty quiet about my mental health since then.

Since I have isolated for so many years, I doubt I have been missed by many or thought of by most. I wonder sometimes if anyone has any idea what I have been going through all of this years-living in such isolation.

Most people seem to have some sort of social life. Usually, people have at least one friend they see in real life, but I hide away in my house year after year, away from the world. At least I have my husband and my kids. Without them, I would be utterly alone.

Thankfully, despite the isolation, my depression has lifted and I am once again on the road to recovery.

Something that has been truly beneficial for me has been using a variety of essential oils. Rather than dreading taking a shower like I used to, I look forward to my daily bath full of essential oils, Epsom salts, and silky bubbles. Along with using these oils in the bath, I use them throughout my house, and in my cleaning products. I can’t underestimate how much of an impact these oils have made in lifting my mood.

Usually, the winter brings a deadness inside that stays active along with the cold months that lingers on. This year I have instead, an anticipation for spring, as well as an appreciation for the beauty of now. I have been enjoying the birds at my feeder, as well as feeding the squirrels. Things just feel better!

Of course, I have to mention the spiritual side of things. I have been listening to a great deal of Christian talk radio, which I really enjoy because it feels like I get to go to church every day of the week without leaving the house. My prayers have been full of gratitude for life and love.

I am truly thankful for all that God has done, and for who He is. He continues to amaze me with his handiwork painted in the skies for all to see.

I have also been enjoying my bunnies and am still wondering how I never knew before what awesome pets they were to have. I love my Hunny Bunny, and my Butters!

Well, that’s my quick update for now. It’s not something I usually do, but I also don’t know where this blog will be taking me so…. 🙂

Until next time, stay safe, and be blessed! 🙂